Day 3 .. and what a day it was !

Day 3 .. and what a day it was. Today was a very rough day, eating wise I did fairly well. I was not as hungry as I was in day 2. Saying that , I was not as hungry however I did want to eat. Where I work there is always the smell of food, people eating different things throughout the day that I want to eat. Today was a stressful day so I wanted to eat more. Ever since I can remember I used food for comfort . The more upset/stressed I was the more I would eat, ever since I can remember, hence my current situation. Last night i had a mini meltdown, so many things were going through my head i felt sick to my stomache and had the worset headache. It is like I am addicted to food, I want to loose weight more than anything and i realized that I have to depend on myself to do that ME .. I have let myself down so many times, especially in this situation, yet i have to depend on me to do what i want the most in life at this point . That scares the S&^T out of me ! Not knowing how to deal with this caused my melt down, my husband was minding his own business doing this and I freaked out on him. Really I wanted him to ask what was wrong and just hug me but how was he supposed to know that I attacked him ( verbally ) . I had so many emotions fears , thoughts that I just exploded. I want to make myself proud more than anything, but i have to depend on me .. I also need to change a habit that i have had for 20 years ( ish) eating for comfort. What do i do now when i am stressed, happy etc etc ... I need to learn how to deal with these feelings. I am sure that it is not going to be an easy road but I will look back on this someday and hopefully realize how much i have overcome and be proud of myself:) Day 4 to follow ....